Men will never understand…

… neither will anyone else.

I guess you can say I’m a very… difficult personality to deal with. I’m glad that the people in my life, remain in my life. I’m just very very hard to please.

I recently got a package from Richard in the mail. Last year, I told him I thought baby hippos are cute. What does he do? He orders a hippo stuffed animal for me… Umm? I didn’t ask for a hippo toy, nor am I like “other girls” that collect stuffed animals. It seems my words or actions seem to make people want to buy me something. This year. What does Richard send me? A towel (with the design of a $100) and a cup that is like a long-extendable camera lens. I think Tiffany likes the gifts more than I do. lol. I don’t know why he sent me this or what his intentions are. I told him thanks. He asks me if I like the gifts. I can’t lie, I don’t! I have no use for it. 

Another example:

  • I was shopping with my mom and I saw something and said “Aww, it’s cute.” When I say it’s cute, it doesn’t necessarily mean I want it. Does it? What does she do? She goes out and buys it for me when I’m not with her. She also did this with a Versace perfume set thing she bought for me, for my birthday. Which is collecting dust, but apparently she uses it.

It’s the thought that counts.

I seriously have no idea what his thoughts were behind these gifts. I need to write a gifting guide for me. I hate getting gifts that I will not use or I don’t need. And my thoughts? It’s clutter.

I guess I just need to work on being more appreciative. But seriously when I say I don’t want anything, don’t get me anything. I can’t even make a decision on what I want. When I want something I’ll usually buy it myself. But it comes and goes often.

Anyways, my birthday is in 2 days. My flight is tomorrow!


Like many young Americans, I find life very very hard to wade through. I’m still living at home with my mom and sisters. I just can’t imagine struggling to pay bills, I rather sacrifice my freedom for the moment. It’s just so stressing. I’m thankful that I maintained a job while attending school full time.

I’m in my last two semesters at UHWO before I get my Bachelor’s in Business. I’m very ecstatic. I’m also very excited because my job promotion allows me more leeway with my bills. I no longer struggle too much w/ bills because I’m getting paid better and salary too. I’m not complaining.

Now though, I see all my friends struggling and nothing much I can do to help. I just started this business with Wake Up Now, not because I was the “lucrative” compensation, mind you I have my plate full. My friend Jerrell pitched this onto me, and I was like hmmm, sounds too much for me. Nevertheless, I Googled this company. My initial thoughts? It’s a scam.

But I figured it can’t hurt to try. I’m enjoying the discounts. I like it! I’m enjoying the freebies. Love it! But getting others onboard is quite hard. :\ I’m not good at selling something that not in my hands. I can sell my ass of t-shirts, but this one is harder. I’m guessing I’m not in the mind-set to spread an amazing product. It’s designed to help keep people out of debt and lower it, meanwhile, offering them a great way to earn residual income.

Well, I have a couple term papers to write. So online marketing has to wait. I seriously cannot wait to finish school. It’s taking over my life.